no mames

is it bad to be so self aware.
to know exactly why you are the way you are and why you react a certain way. for only being 2o i know exactly how and why i am the way i am.

its been good. but it messes wit me. ill catch myself before an act and try to counter it but i mess it up.or i try to be better at what i know i suck at and it never goes well either.

i think i know more then i should, some how it gets twisted in my head and i go on doing what i shouldn't as if i have no clue i would. when i saw it coming.

i know why i give to many chances, i know why im to nice, i know why i just dont give a shit..

it would probably be easier if i didnt.

people always come to me with issue when they needed to talk that i started coming to me. so late at nights i would just talk to myself. not out load cuz that would be crazy. id go on and on. id even make myself laugh sometimes. that was a little crazy. until i said everything even the things i didnt want to say.

so now i know exactly why.


nah, it has to be a good thing. ive always been pretty good with dealing with people.

i cant stand when you cant read a person and you have no idea what they want. it bugs me lol. i just wanna know and i dont wanna bring it up or go first



times like this i wish batman were real. he'd crawl thru my window id give him a nice back rub. we'd say good night [with s sloppy kiss duh] and go to sleep.

yes i day dream about bruce wayne. i like guys that are put together with a dark side. i dont mind a boy with a past as long as he can man up to it and has changed for the better.
also bruce is so smart, so hes a bit nerdy[plus]
we can watch cartoons together maybe he'll be into the history channel, teen titans haha.
i can go on and on about our imaginary lives together.
of course ill worry when he goes out, but i know he'll always come home. ill take care of the business [ yea i can get business savy] and our home while he fights for justice. plus the suite is so hot ;] oh yes.