stupid dumb

i swear. ive made up my mind. its official.

i will end up alone with 10 cats. dont laugh. ill be happy. i love cats. and ill only pretend to be crazy. wont be too hard.

i swear everyone, i mean everyone, is with someone. its like annoying. i never noticed it until this past week. maybe cuz half of the people i know all have relationship issues they are stressing over and they all came to me to talk. for someone who's so great at giving advice i sure cant even stay in one.

its kinda funny, everyone always usually says the same thing. the obvious you ll find someone. and the wow your so chill and cool about things and never get all dramatic why are you still single.


:/

well its cuz you people scare me. ive been that person. stuck in a relationship domed from day one. and it seems like everyone else is struggling. why should i.

first of all, duh! every relationship has its ups and downs.
i just dont wanna deal with any downs.

maybe i need a cute boy i can hang with make out with but not be with.
wait, no that makes me sound like a slut.

why is it that guys can do all this shit and its ok, but if a girl does it shes a slut.

its ok. i really wouldnt want to do that. cuz if i were id like him to be my boyfriend. even thou that word sound so bizarre to me.

but it would be nice. ill say it, i miss cuddling and making out and late night phone calls.

anyways.

cats. i love them.

on to more important subjects..

its so bloody HOT!!!!!

its like 100 and its like 1.30am! okay maybe not 100 but like 80.

this will be my 3rd summer here and im still not use to it.

south city better be cold.

ok not cold. but warm with a slight breeze.
please.