white out

whats better to be lied to, to cover up something that can hurt you.
or be told the truth and have it ruin days to come.

i hate being lied to. i try so hard not to lie to people.
but there have been times that i knew i was being lied to, but it sounded so good i went along with it.

there are times i dont trust what i hear, but its better then getting into some pointless argument with someone.

is it bad to say i push people away. is it horrible that i keep people at an arms length sometimes. its a bad habit to always be so vague.

maybe i distrusted some of the people i was the closest to it still haunts me. can you really just be over it if certain aspect still follow you.

not the names, the places, but the shit they do that hurts.


i wont blame or judge you because someone in my past mis used my trust.
you should never walk around with a black cloud hovering over you ready to rain any any kind of parade you start to have.



is closure bad? is wanting to say everything bad? is wanting to have noting unsaid before the last good bye bad?im all for having everything that needs to be said said. whatever the issue who ever its with, i will say what needs to be said.


but sometimes i wonder are some things better left unsaid?



i feel like the only thing that you should never forget are the things you got out of something and learned. move on from the past. fuck the names, places and times. but keep the lessons. cheesy much...lol


im good where i stand.


i hope you are all able to let go of whatever monsters have followed you and have kept you awake. i hope that you can look back and not have it defeat you as it once might have. i hope you can look back to take something from it and look forward to something new.

dont regret, dont dwell.
i dont, and refuse to


its getting late
this is so pretty to me