lost in a diffrent world

what the fuck!
why do people have to be so irresponsible?
its not fair. i get all my shit done and on TIME, and because of other people i have to suffer with them.
its not fair.
so what am i suppose to do sit and wait while some people grow up and i have to be dragged down with them until then.


how do you tell someone that you dont think you can be there friend anymore.
how do you tell someone that you think being there friend is causing trouble.
i see all the distruction and the trouble the person is causing and its effecting everyone in a negative way.
i hate feeling like i have to tip toe around people.
i hate feeling like i cant get the person mad or itll blow up into some huge shit.
i hate feeling like i have to chose sides.
i hate that i cant even be myself around this person.
how do you tell someone that they need to grow up and stop acting the way that they are.
how do you tell them that as much as you love them you refuse to get involved so you rather not even be there for them.
how do you tell them that you hate that they lie, that you hate how they bring you into arguments that have nothing to do with you.
how do you tell them that you are avoiding them.
how do you tell them to just leave you alone, atleast for a while.

i re evaluated relationships in my life once, i thought things would be better. i guess i need to again.

i need new friends.

okay not exaclty i LOVE most of my friend i just wouldnt mind trading a couple..lol

i swear this city is eating me up.
i have to leave san jose.